Wednesday, June 30, 2010

我 心软了

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Bibubibu

Woke up at 2pm in the afternoon. I had a weird dream. I cant really remember what is it about. Ciu ciu told me he had nightmare last nite. Maybe that dream of mine can be consider as a nightmare too.

Last nite we went MCD. I was like sitting there, facing the laptop, rushing my IA assignment. I do think i look like panda now as Sameul asked me how long have i NOT been sleeping. Yeah rite, i am turning into a vampire. I do prefer daytime sometimes, but night is still the best. I found that people here do enjoy night life more than day.

Was somehow abit disappoited because i had a small small tiny argument with my BF last nite. We blame him for not telling us that we are actually going there to watch football match. He said he told me before, but actually he didn't. He walked away from us when i denied that he did told us the purpose we went there. I feel that we were so far away now. I tried to know him more but i failed. I cant really understands him, i dont know what he wants! I dono what he thinks!

Dont tell me that i thinked too much.

Monday, June 28, 2010

失眠

最近都没有想更新的感觉
是怎么了

最近又忧闷的感觉

竟然失眠了

原来失眠是这种感觉
脑袋里乱七八糟
不知在想些什么

感觉自己跌进一个无底洞
爬也爬不出来

Sunday, June 27, 2010

有时候

当你对爱情的步伐感到累了 就该停下来
看看这个世界 看看身边的人与物

有时候不是一句 我喜欢你
就是一切
喜欢的背后 可以隐藏着很多谎言
可以带着很多的不安

有时候不是我要吃醋
只是因为你的一举一动 我都很在乎

有时不是我要哭
只是我不忍心 再对你发脾气

有时候不是我想闹
只是我怕我再不说 我们的距离就会慢慢的
越来越远

有时候不是我想缠着你
只是我怕我慢慢的放开
你也会慢慢地走开

有时候我会选择默默无语
是因为我也希望你
静下来看着我

哪怕一句简单的 你怎么了
都可以为我带来无限的安慰

我不需要每一天的 我爱你
只需要你心里存在着
那么一点
想要爱我的心

Thursday, June 24, 2010

我是一只小小鸟

A very nice song, i actually cry after listening to this.

Some Emo Thingy

I'm so not in a good mood. I skipped morning tutorial class, skipped moral class, and planning to skip international advertising class later too. What am i doing. Something just pop up in my mind, it was like : y cares?

I was acting very strangely these days, i act to be happy i act innocent. My mood went UP and DOWN and UP and DOWN... Seriously SHIT.

And yet, i was trying to get to know more about my BF. I feel like i know nothing about him, totally BLANK! I feel like us being so "weird" together.

Today is FRIDAY! FRIDAY and FRIDAY! What am i going to do on this weekend, should i go to find laopo in KL? " i'm broke" Should i just stay at home watching drama? "the internet was so slow recently" Should i go Ipoh with Jeremy? " for the 2nd time, i'm broke" Should i just sit and stare at the wall, dreaming. " i guess so"

STOP ME! Stop me from this nightmare. I was acting so so so weird did somebody notice that? Why should i fake a smile when i am NOT happy. Why dont i just act like ciu ciu " I DUN GIVE A FUCK " I hate myself! ARGH!

My room is messy, ya, really MESSY. Should i clean it up, hmm, no. Messy it is. Ate some of the BBQ MAMEE noodles last nite. Trust me, it doesnt taste good. The packaging was nice. Nice marketing but awful taste== It was like SOUR BBQ flavour.

I'm going to talk about yesterday. YESTERDAY afternoon i fetch Moyang to oldtown Maybank. While waiting for her, i park my car beside the road, AS USUAL. 5 minutes later, there was a indian guy, inside a WAJA, stop beside me, and keep pressing the HORN. I look at him and he was like scolding me and ask me to go away. I gave the signal to turn right, then there is a car driving so FAST then he press the HORN again because we nearly bang each other. [ why i feel like i was typing an essay entitled : my day ] Bf was so sweet to come to fetch me home, while i leave the car for my sis. I seriously had enough and i dont want to drive anymore on that day.

This is why i went EMO again. Until now, i dont know what is in my mind. I feel sorry to Jamie and Ah Seng for not goin to class. I feel sorry to Jamie for not joining them for game last nite. I feel sorry to Jeremy for ignoring him sometimes.

I know i should be like this but i cant help it. I really cant. I am sorry.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Dont Know

I dont know if i did wrong this time.
I dont know if i get the wrong message.
I dont know if i get the wrong feelings.
I dont know if i love u.
I seriously dont know.

ARGH!

Bullshit! Bullshit!
This is all BULLSHIT!

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

麻木

当你的手心碰到他的手心
会是什么感觉
当你的指尖碰到他的指尖
又会是什么感觉

恋爱是什么感觉

当你爱的他也爱你
是什么感觉

当你爱的他不爱你
又是什么感觉

怎么了
我对感觉
麻木了吗

Monday, June 21, 2010

Good Day

Today will be a good good day, yea?

Sunday, June 20, 2010

自己

当你望着水面 浮现的倒映竟不是自己
你会怎么做

当你发现 你心里的那个自己
已经不存在
你会怎么办

我想努力找回自己
可以吗

失望

我 是个现实的人吗?

With Love♥

I wan to thank
Ciu Ciu
Ah Mei
Moyang
Jeremy
Ah Lun
Thank you.

两个人不等于我们

你想我吗 会偶尔想我吗

是这样吗 飞扬的会落下

你爱我吗 如果诚实回答

可是爱也让人疲乏

I'm not missing u.

I'm Sick.

Fever, headache, cold, sore throat, cough

Yet i am suffering from another illness

missing u.

Guess that's what make me sick.

Friday, June 18, 2010

咖啡般的恋爱

就像喝咖啡一样 那既甜 又苦涩的味道

就像品尝下午茶一样 那高贵优雅的气质

就像一口咬下巧克力蛋糕一样 那既幸福 又满足的滋味

这是我的爱情

既甜蜜又苦涩

你的呢?

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

我疯了!
快疯了!