Thursday, June 27, 2013

Pathetic

I'm freezing, siting at the corner of the bed. Things dont get well between us. I thought that we would be perfect match, at least i thought so. I've been shivering all the while, and i dont know why. Don't wanna catch cold or sick anymore, I've suffer enough today.

Today definitely was not my day. From the dream that makes me wake up from my sleep with a shock, until the boyfriend that I don't really recognise anymore. Why things went so bad? From giving me hope then taking it away. From saying you love me then left me alone in the corner. What I did wrong to deserve all of these? I sacrifice for my love, I make hard decision for us. But why baby. Why do you get angry of small things, why would you even bare to left me alone. It's a hard day, a very very hard day.

I start to doubt about all the things. I start to doubt about my decisions. Hence, never doubt about our relationship. I love you, and i thought you know. Why is my love hanging there, why aren't you taking care of it. It will be a long long night i guess. I'm hungry and I'm freezing. All I want is a hug, but will you ever know.

我真的 很痛

好失望

第一次感觉到那么失望

一直以来失望的都是些小事
都是一些不重要的事

但这次
好痛
难得是自己想要的
想要努力去争取的
失败了

应该是让人宠了好久好久
小小的挫折
我竟然
不会去面对

从来没有自己去争取过自己想要些什么
因为都学会了依赖

但为什么
在我想自己站起来的时候
给我这么一个打击

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

逃避于面对

每当有不开心的事情发生
第一件想到的
总是想逃避

到底这种性格
会缠着我多久

明明就知道不应该逃避
明明就知道应该解决
但心里总是告诉自己

逃避吧
你解决不到的
你只能逃避

不!
不能再这样下去了
我要坚强
我要面对

告诉自己
你长大了!